Why?

Why do things always happen at the MOST inconvenient time?

For the 2nd week in a row, I've been in the "top two" candidates for really good jobs.  And for the 2nd week in a row, "I'm sorry, we've decided to go with the other candidate" has been the response.  It's exhausting waiting for answers from these multiple interview processes.  I don't understand what I'm doing wrong, and I'm not getting any feedback on why the decision was made that way.

Am I too old? too fat? Spinach in my teeth?  I know it's not my resume, experience or interview skills. I want to have a relaxing, fun Christmas, and not worry about stuff.

I'm just feeling sorry for myself today.  I'm sure by tomorrow I'll have my equilibrium back, but right now I'm off balance.